REALity

hais ang daming mga ginagawa. naghahabol ng plates, quiz at activities sa minor subjects, paplano ng costume, sa org, tapos yung ngayong plate na super bongga, kailangan ng groupings. pero kahit ganon marunong na kami mag manage sa oras namin, kasi nga mga nadala na nung first year at kahit papano eh natuto na kami. tska parang ang saya naman ng mga gagawin pa namin kasi dito masusukat ang team work naming magkakaibigan, tulungan ba gah haha.

ilang araw din nakalipas nalaman kong tatakbo pala yung apat kong friends para sa fine arts student council. medyo nalungkot at nashock kami ni abby nun kasi late na namin nalaman. naisip ko tuloy nun hindi naman porket medyo late kami ni abby maka gets eh late na din kami maa-update sa mga balita lalo na kung mga kaibigan pa namin pinag uusapan. napaisip tuloy ako nun, kasi panigurado na sila din ang papasok sa student council dahil wala silang kalaban eh mahahati na ang oras nila. kung yung dati na magkakasama kami sa isang place lang at gumagawa ng kalokohan eh bihira na lang mangyari. kung sabay sabay kami kumakaen sa susunod bka hindi na kasi ma mga meeting pa sila or something. basta. feeling namin ng mga iba ko pang friends maiiba na ang lahat once na naging busy na silang apat. baka mahati tuloy yung grupo, wag naman sana.


nagiging emotional na naman ako... pero hindi ako emo ah..

behind all my happy face, there's a sadness and loneliness that i felt. hmm maybe because "sir" and i were not seeing these days. kaya ayan tuloy, ang lungkot ko. tska kasi hindi na sya ganung nagpaparamdam. hindi na sya nagtetext maski "good morning", "eat your lunch first before doing something" , "are you already at home?" o kung anu pa man. hindi na sya masyadong nagtetext. gabi na lang tapos sandali pa. iniisip ko na lang na busy siguro sya. but there are some thoughts that comes to my mind na he already find someone. yung bang klase ng girl na pagpapantasyahan o pinapangarap ng halos lahat ng mga lalaki. hindi naman kasi malayong mangyari yun dahil nasa environment na yun ng mga lalaki. alam yon ng lahat ng girls kaya nga there are some point na kapag nagiging close yung love one nila eh hindi mawawala sa isip ng mga girls ang magduda. nasa environment na din kasi namin yon. kanya kanyang environment yan.


nito lang. nagparamdam si sir. friday kasi, siguro napasa or natapos na nya mga plates nya. tinanong nya ko kung mahalaga pa daw ba sya para sakin. ang sabi ko syempre oo. kasi alam namin na may nag iba na sa pagitan naming dalawa. ang sabi ko pa sa kanya "nare-reflect ko lang kung anong nangyayari satin ngayon. ganyan talaga eh, hindi natin maiiwasan mga bagay na ganto. lilipas din siguro 'to, yaan mo". nagreply naman agad agad sya "pero hindi ako papayag. gusto kong matutunan mo kong mahalin dati pa. pero kasi hindi ko maisip bakit di mo man lang masabi kahit minsan na mahal mo nga ko". napasabi na lang ako na "gusto kong sabihin sayo yon. nauunahan lang ako ng takot. nun pa, nung new year pa." wala na kong pakielam kung nasabi ko pa yon. gusto kong sabihin yung mga salita na matagal ng gustong lumabas sa bibig ko. tinanong pa nya ko ulit ako, kung kailangan ko pa daw ba sya, ang nasabi ko na lang "kung nandyan pa yung sir na kilala ko, oo". hindi naman daw nawala, nandito lang naman daw sya para sakin. sana nga... ayaw kong umasa ng todo kasi ayaw kong masaktan ng bongga.


habang magkatext kami nagbigay sya sakin ng title ng kanta.. "i think of you".. pakinggan ko da sana, yun daw lage nyang pinapakinggan lalo na kapag di kami magkasama. everytime na naririnig nya yung song ako daw pumapasok sa isip nya. infairness, i must admit... maganda yung song.. yung message at melody.. nagustuhan ko.. at isa pa eh sapol na sapol ako. parang that song was made for us..


I THINK OF YOU
by taj jackson


I miss you babe
girl i know i been busy didn't get to talk
but don't let your head play them games with your heart
its been a little crazy doing what i do
but i just cant wait to get home with you
i know its been hard me not being there
baby i don't want you thinking that i don't really care
and i know that your feeling like i'm being unfair
but your love is with me everywhere

when i dream i think of you
breath i think of you
all day i think of you
give all my love to you my baby boo
swear its true all i do is think of you
when i pray i think of you
far away i think of you
all day i think of you
my heart belongs to you my baby boo
yes its true all i do is think of you

always say i love you before i go to sleep
if i die before i'm awake then i take your love with me
every second i'm away from you feels like misery
cuz i know where i really want to be
i know its been hard me not being there
baby i don't want you thinking that i don't really care
and i know that your feeling like i'm being unfair
but your love is with me everywhere

when i dream i think of you
breath i think of you
all day i think of you
give all my love to you my baby boo
swear its true all i do is think of you
when i pray i think of you
far away i think of you
all day i think of you
my heart belongs to you my baby boo
yes its true all i do is think of you

what do you do when you love someone so much
you'll do almost anything just for one touch
trying to make an excuse just to get away
that's the way i feel about you baby
when i leave do you know what i go through
it makes me cry every time cuz i miss you
and i hope you feel the same way to
cause all i do is think of you

(2x)
when i dream i think of you
breath i think of you
all day i think of you
give all my love to you my baby boo
swear its true all i do is think of you
when i pray i think of you
far away i think of you
all day i think of you
my heart belongs to you my baby boo
yes its true all i do is think of you

all i do is think of you




sana maayos na ang lahat..